So, I'm in quite a conundrum right now. My mind in rolling over trying to analysis the situation that I find myself in but I'm not able to find my way. In times like these I always pray for God to clear my mind, to help me see what I'm supposed to see but I (more often than not) never seem to get that clarity without much turmoil. How do you know when you are walking in God's given path and when you are trying to carve your own way? I've been told that with God's way there is no confusion, no doubts. But it can't be that easy because I can't seem to reach that clearing of no doubt and confusion without going though so much of it that I make myself dizzy with trying to figure out if I'm supposed to be going left or right.
This really seems to be something I struggle with a lot. Life changing decisions don't seem to be my forte. I'm praying that God work on this within me. It's such an innate need of mine to not knowingly or willing do anything against God's will that I find myself standing still when I feel like I should just be moving where ever He leads me, but I find it so hard to take that first step. Like my feet have cemented themselves in fear, mistrust, doubt of my own intuition. I want to cry in my frustration but all I can do is just ask for the help and the clarity that I so need. Please show me the right way. In Jesus' name.
